Renewal

I feel so renewed! Something in me has been created during the night of Friday, when I was at the i:q fest... and I think the drag show has to do something with it. :)

Yeah, there are no typos: I did do a drag performance! *yeah* And even that I was totally nervous and my legs were shaking the whole time when on stage lipsyncing to Charlene's "I've never been to me" (which many of you certainly know from Priscilla, The Queen of the Desert), I was so happy to do it. This year certainly has become the year I try out things I have never done but always wanted! I mean, I am not such a fan of being in drag, it is rather the performance and the feedback from the crowd which I am interested in. And I can tell you, it is a great pleasure to see people enjoying it and receiving compliments afterwards. (Thanks!)

...but coming back to the new feeling: I feel stronger and more determined. As if the performance would have shown me the power I have. (Feeling like She-Ra soon: "By the honor of Greyskull!") *g* I feel more beautiful, more selfesteemed, more of being out there, living my life than actually sitting in my room and soulfucking myself using a diary.

Oh, btw, for those, who would be interested how things are going with my unexpected encounter: he has a great long-lasting relationship and is living a city far away... so we settled for a friendship and I am happy with it. It is great to find such a great friend! Thanks, L.