An unexpected encounter

It made me laugh internally... Just several hours before I have been sitting with Stefan and Severin in the Top Kino cafe and been talking about love and how it is hard to find: the love, which comes unexpectingly, suddenly, surprisingly... You are at a party, do not know anybody, drinking wine, feeling slowly and slowly getting tired of the alcohol... still, the time is nice, the people are just like you and me, dancing to the songs of Boney M. and such... there is a positive tune in the air, and also in your mood... you do not know how, but suddenly you are talking to a guy... he is handsome, interesting, funny... special looks in his and your eyes follow... the touch, the skin feels so soft... you are thinking of this being a fantasy... :)

Well, I always get reminded that these things exist at the precise moments when I feel like losing faith in love and life, when my life is getting inconsistent... like yesterday...

It happened.
And I am glad.

Thanks L, you made me believe again! :)

(Image by Jorn Henrik: The Unexpected III)

Haven't cried so much in a long time

I really surprise myself sometimes... like just now... I have been watching Whale Rider and was weeping constantly for the last 15 minutes... Fifteen minutes! Can you imagine that... I mean, there wasn't even SUCH a sad moment within the movie, however the final pictures made me feel so desolate and saddened... I think the movie really well connects the intimate story of Paikea as the unwanted child within the line of chiefs and the disintegrating nation of the Whangara. But crying so much... I always knew I am a crybaby... but this! :)

Brodeuses

On a totally different note: I have been again surprised by a movie. Brodeuses (Perlenstickerinnen) is a beautiful piece of cinematography and script interpretation by the camera under the helm of Éléonore Faucher as director of this french movie.
Claire, a 17-year old, is pregnant. She cuts the relationship with her parents, and moves into the city, her only bond being her younger brother Thomas. She covers up her feelings under the veil of angriness, her growing belly under several layers of vests and jackets. She is decided not to keep the baby but give it to adoption. Her only bright moments are the hours spent with embroidery... but that is not what the film is about...
It is about patterns in our lifes which we embroid. It is about the patterns we create and fill with happiness, beauty and love or even sadness, truth and pain. What is the pattern you are working on right now?

Single and looking?

After I have received the word yesterday from a prospect of mine that he "only" wants to remain friends with me, I feel more and more free... Seems to me like any falling in love ties up my energy and if not resolved in a relationship or parting, makes me feel desolate. Which is just really bad, I tell you! :(

On the other hand, I have the feeling of belonging more and more to myself... and compelled to listen to what my inner voice is saying: There are right now two other guys who I find kind of attracted to however I lack the vibes of falling in love with any of them... even if it is only on a superficial basis of looks and behavioural attitude. I kind of cannot move without that feeling... There is no "later"... just "now".

So... I shall keep waiting... single... but looking?
No, not really... :)