Desperate... but still content?

It is a weird feeling... I partly feel desperate and would love to ass-kick myself million times, however partly I feel content and calm. I cannot really come up with an explanation for this comic co-habitat of those two very contrast feelings, maybe the co-existence of those two is possible due to the fact that I precisely know where they originate.

The desperation comes from my weak preparation for the exam I should be taking tomorrow. I mean, I am not clueless, however do not feel competent enough to take it. Sure I will go, at least I get a glimpse of how it is constructed and get a feeling for it next time, however I feel a cognitive dissonance (yup, that is one of the fancy words I am learning for my exam currently) growing in me and feel my selfesteem getting lower than ever... Maybe I need to watch a episode of Daria in Esteemers. *g* Ok, no. I need the time for my studying.

My other part is content and calm thanks to several issues: I have just eaten and it was wonderful (never underestimate your stomach!), I know I can complete the exam the next time, I have got to know somebody special and I fell in love a bit. (Yes, I am also shocked!)

Let's take the things one after the other... Today, I have attended a brunch with my friends from AIESEC. It was good, very friendly, and I did some socializing with the next generation of LC Vienna's EB-potentials... The brunch was at Weltcafe and here are some impressions from it:




Now, as I really cook like a miracle since the last two days, I have decided to go on and do something new today... Let me present, ladies and gentlemen: Strapačky! A very traditional Slovak meal, which actually is potatoe-based dumplings with sourkraut and bacon (here substituted with sausage-pieces).



Yes, yes... I know, some of you would love to know something more about me falling in love currently... yeah, something like that is indeed happening... and as you know, it always comes mostly unexpected. T is a great guy from Germany, who has been to Vienna last week and well... we met, we looked into each others eyes... and... hell yeah, it happened. *g*
That's it for now, more details next time. :)

Currently listening to Antonio Carlos Jobim's Agua de Beber from his great compilation of bossanova songs which I would certainly love to dance to with somebody... ;)

Three toques... at least!

I have made my way up to the stellar heights of the award-winning cooks by creating great stuff yesterday for supper and today for lunch. Geb (my flat-share mate) tells me, I should receive at least two and a half toques for my cooking skills! :) And I am just being happy that my friends enjoy what I cook for them.

Especially today, I made a real effort to produce the best boršč ever! My mum told me to substitute some of the ingeriences, so I have not been using real veal bones to cook but a buillon and also did not use vinegar but sourkraut, which made the whole thing even more juicy!


For those, who are not fluent in Eastern European (this time, Russian) kitchen, Boršč is a meat-and-vegetables soup, very thick and rather sweet-sour, reddish through the usage of beetroot. And... extremely tasty!

Here are some impressions before and after the cooking:



Currently listening to Madonna's I love New York on her latest album Confessions on a dance floor

Alex in Brokeback Mountain style

As some of you were curious enough to ask about the BBM-style of mine, I was silly enough to take the chance and do some photos of me with my precious belongings on... So, here I come!

The BBM-style consists of a

• cowboy hat, no name brand, indigo jeans material, size 58
  
• John Doyle shirt, Scotch & Soda brand, red-and-white flannel, worn-out style, size L
  
• jeans, 4U brand, style Ranger, model 6590, call 9677, size 33/34
  
• belt, HIS brand, brown wood texture, size 95

Any questions?

P.S. Do not regard the basket full of rubish next to me, nor my personal altar behind me. :)

Currently listening to Depeche Mode's I want it all from their album Playing the Angel

Brokeback Mountain

After seeing it already twice - second time at the gala evening in Filmcasino's re-opening on Thursday - I tend to regard Brokeback Mountain more and more critically. It still remains a pearl between the other trash in the movies right now, however there are certain facts which begin to annoy me. First is the choice of both main actors (Gyllenhall and Ledger) being that beautiful. Sure, it is easier and more pleasant to look at beautiful people, however this does not match with the book, which describes the guys as rough and kind of quirky. The other critical point is the fact that Ang Lee just did not have enough balls to make this a full blown movie about sexuality. He stays at the love side of the story to be safe and not risk the exposure of male-to-male sexuality. By that he neglects a main part of the story. The book as I see it is about desire: emotional, spiritual or physical. By negating one part of these, the other two just do not make sense anymore. The main characters remain in kind of a platonic stasis without a chance to get out of it. Such a pity.
Still, the movie is brilliant in many ways and should be seen!

To pay a tribute to the movie, I have actually bought several things to remind me of it: a flanel shirt, new jeans, and - of course - a cowboy hat! I was really fortunate to find all these things (some during my trip to Budapest, other during my skiing trip to Kaprun last week) and love all of them indeed. :)

Listening to Beautiful Boyz from Coco Rosie feat. Antony.