Yes, I have found it! The meaning of my life. I know it actually sounds very silly as it is a rather long-term thing to find the reason to live and be sure, I am also quite surprised with the outcome of my reflection, however it somehow fits me and it reflects my persona very well, I think, so I am going to stick with it for now.
Btw, I have been blogging about my goals (this one included) on the 43thing.com website, which enables you to follow up on your goals, reminds you of them and let you be inspired by other people achieving these things. My goals may be found here.
And now, the meaning of my life, ladies and gentlemen is:
to be satisfied with myself.
Maybe it sounds very simple, but believe me, most complex things are. Some people would like to be happy, other search for fame or would like to be remembered. Maybe those could be side-effects of what I want but not primary reasons to live. Be self-satisfied is a good reason to go on. And when I say satisfied, I mean satisfied on all aspects of my life: my mind (mental), body (physical) and soul (emotional, spiritual, social levels).
This reflection later brought me to the notion of holistic view of one's life. In the last weeks, I have been reading more about different theories of holistic lifestyles. The structures of body/mind/soul or physical/mental/emotional/spiritual both acutally talk about the same stuff - a view on a person from multiple perspectives. And I really believe, all of these have to be satisfied for me to feel in balance. Which brings me to another outcome of this little exercise and this being my spiritual self.
I believe, I have been up to many things during my life but non of them actually represented a spiritual context of the world. I have been raised without a religion however in humanistic ideals, which put the aspects of human ethics and solidarity at the very top of all the values. The faith in a transcendental context was however missing. I feel an urge now to find this context for me. Maybe it will guide me towards a religion (a thought, which right now, I am not very found of) but I would rather like to start with myself. I would like to explore my spirituality. This is what I want to be engaged with in the next couple of months. ;)
Listening to: Osho - Chakra Sounds Meditation